OK, I should have dug deeper in the first place... I found a bunch of old recordings that I'm somewhat hesitant to put up here, but I guess you'll find them interesting. Hopefully after awhile, they'll get buried in the archives of my blog, never to be seen or heard again.
Not sure what it is about keeping a blog that makes you put yourself on the line like this... I hope I don't lose any jobs over this singing...
These are the recordings I sang solos on as a part of the comedy octet, The Other Guys, I was in at the University of Illinois.
Here's Message in a Bottle, a Sting cover.
Every Breath You Take, another Sting cover
Rock with You, a Michael Jackson cover
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For, a U2 cover
Waiting for You, a Seal cover
Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, a Beatles cover
Wouldn't It Be Nice, a Beach Boys cover
And now for something completely different...
These are recordings I made when I was a teenager... Amazing that I still have them. I wish I had recent recordings of these songs to put side-by-side... too bad.
These are excerpts of songs from the Broadway stage that I recorded with Tom Schleis, my first voice coach. You can hear how he worked on diction and effortless high notes with me... Fortunately, I think some of that still lingers in my singing from time to time...
Here's "Why God Why," from Miss Saigon
"Finishing the Hat," from Sunday in the Park with George
"Lonely House," from Street Scene
I was looking through some old files on my computer and found this. It's a video from a rehearsal in New York. I formed a quartet with three friends called The Suitors. We billed ourselves as a Professional Rat Pack Quartet. What a time this was.
Direct effect of the economic recession on a 65-member youth orchestra:
Lack of funding forces a not-for-profit organization to cancel a set of sectional rehearsals scheduled for this season.
It seems like a little thing, but it's the little things that add up to shape what this recession means for every American citizen. And for those of you who think this recession might go unnoticed by children, think again. They are as disappointed as I am. It's one less opportunity they have to get more attention from educators with smaller class sizes.
From the San Jose Mercury News:
Rachel L. Bierach Passed away at the age of 22. She lived in Campbell, California. Rachel: intense, brilliant, and beaming. She had a Bachelor of Music in Classical Piano Performance (SFSU), the best desserts in town, and a loving devotion to the Catholic Church. She is survived by her daughter, Violet, 1, her parents, Carol and Jeff, as well as sisters, Katie and Hannah, and a large extended family.
That's Rach. When I apologized to the kids in my orchestra for being sad over the loss of a friend, one of my students said that a friend of hers took piano lessons from Rachel. Small world. Rachel played beautifully—that's her playing the Chopin Nocturne in f sharp minor, Op. 48 No. 2 above. It's a recording from December. She probably performed that more recently than the last time I saw her.
Rachel was a firecracker. She never let something go unsaid. She was completely honest all the time, and had seemingly no filter. Most people would say they would rather live the way Rachel did, and few would have the guts. She baked constantly, and would always demand that I come over on Monday nights to sample the latest. When I would arrive, she would have invariably eaten half of what she had made with her sisters. She played the guitar and sang Beatles songs and gave me an oven mitt for my birthday. We wrote on the ceiling of her bathroom with permanent marker, and I'm not sure if she ever cracked the score of the Dichterliebe I gave her last summer.
We took her daughter, Violet, to the zoo one day. Violet couldn't stand the goats eating pellets out of her hands without shreiking. We had lunch once with Violet there, and Rachel didn't get to eat because Violet was crying so much. We laughed and laughed.
I sang Strauss at her funeral. She would have hated that, but we would have laughed about it. I miss her dearly and I wish I didn't have this recording of her playing. It's just too sad.
The only real trace we leave is in the people that know how we feel. We all know how Rachel felt, and I, for one, am grateful for that.
From The Conversations: Walter Murch and the Art of Editing Film, by Michael Ondaatje
M: There were many people in France writing realistic novels in the nineteenth century—Balzac comes to mind—but Flaubert was the most conscious of what he was doing, and agonized about it the most. Closely observed reality, for its own sake, had not really been a part of the tradition of literature in the eighteenth century. Flaubert will spend a whole page evoking tiny sounds and motes of dust in an empty room because he's getting at something. He's saying there's meaning to be got out of the very closely observed events of ordinary reality. In literary, scientific and photographic terms—the invention of photography happened when he was in his teens—the nineteenth century, to a much greater degree than the eighteenth, was concerned with the close observation of reality. All of science in the nineteenth century was about very close observation of small things. . . . The nineteenth century focused and greatly expanded these concepts. It made them central to the novel, to the symphony, to painting.
As often happens with revolutionary ideas, they were not easily accepted at first. To some readers realism must have seemed too ordinary to be literature: if the writer was just describing what the reader could see with his own eyes, why write at all? It probably seemed very drab.
And thirty years before Flaubert, composers like Beethoven exploited the idea of dynamics—that by aggressively expanding, contracting, and transforming the rhythmic and orchestral structure of music you could extract great emotional resonance and power.
Composers before Beethoven had, as a rule, composed in separate movements, but every movement both defined and then explored a unified musical space. If you listen to ten seconds of the first movement of any Haydn symphony and then to another ten seconds halfway through and another ten seconds later in the same movement, they resemble one another. When you listen to the whole piece, it's as if you were moving through different rooms of a palace, going in one room, looking around, and then, closing the door and, with the next movement, going into the next room.
Beethoven—I think because he was so enormously influenced by nature rather than architecture—threw that away. The space of each movement has tremendous variety. He will take a huge sound, one that involves all the instruments of the orchestra, and suddenly reduce it to a single instrument. Everything will come down to a single flute for a while, and then a rhythm you haven't heard before will creep up in the background, and then you go off on another tangent again--all within one movement.
Beethoven set the agenda for the entire nineteenth century, musically. By and large, the revolution he instigated was accepted quite quickly. He was deemed a genius of music in his own time. Young people got really excited about this, and old folks throught the world was coming to an end. Carl Maria von Weber said after listening to the Seventh Symphony, "If Beethoven wants his passport to the lunatic asylum, he's just written it!"
If you're used to the old form, this new form sounds like somebody who can't stick to a topic. It's as if a very excited person comes to sit by you while you're having a nice conversation, and then starts talking about ten different things one after another. But music for the rest of the nineteenth century followed that form, and it's a form that film is naturally suited to.
O: So even if Beethoven and film are separated by a century, the line of influence is there.
M: When you listen to Beethoven's music now, and hear those sudden shifts in tonality, rhythm, and musical focus, it's as though you can hear the grammar of film—cuts, dissolves, fades, superimposures, long shots, close shots—being worked out in musical terms. His music didn't stick to the previous century's more ordered architectural model of composition: it substituted an organic, wild, natural—sometimes supernatural—model.
In any case, by the end of the nineteenth century there had been almost a hundred years of Beethoven—this dynamic representation of form—and not quite a hundred years of Flaubert's closely observed reality. And the reason film blossomed into the form we know today—we didn't experiment very long with film, it evolved rapidly—is that it happened to be the right place for these two movements—realism and dynamism—to come together and find some sort of resolution. Given its photographic nature, film is very good at closely observing reality. Because you can move the camera and move the people—and because you can edit—it's very good at the dynamic representation of "reality." Much better than theatre, for instance, which is not very good at, say, fight scenes: when you have a big fight, you're looking at relatively small people onstage fighting each other, whereas a fight scene in a film can be simply overwhelming.
By the end of the nineteenth century these once revolutionary ideas of realism and dynamism had been thoroughly accepted into European culture. Generations of artists, writers, and composers—as well as society at large—had by 1889 completely internalized these ways of looking, thinking, listening. The whole nineteenth century was steeped in realism and dynamism!
And then along came film: a medium ideally suited to the dynamic representation of closely observed reality. And so these two great rivers of nineteenth-century culture—realism from literature and painting, and dynamism from music—surged together within the physical framework of film to emerge, within a few decades, in the new artistic form of cinema.
Within fourteen years of its invention, film grammar is being determined in The Great Train Robbery--the cut, the close-up, parallel action—even while social and economic changes are helping integrate cinema into the pattern of people's daily lives, and making the whole thing pay for itself. Within another dozen years, the feature film was almost as we know it today, thanks to D.W. Griffith and The Birth of a Nation. And then synchronous sound was added twelve years later virtually completing the revolution.
In film school, I was always amazed at how few teachers taught their subject matter as the history or canon of a living art form. Instead of discussing film in school as an evolving social art form, we were constantly prone to turn conversations toward the "lost art," the "golden age," and various "waves" of film making, all of which we were already decades beyond.
Film is widely accepted as the ultimate art media—it combines the visual and the aural experiences, and when executed well, possesses the subtlety required for the viewer's suspension of disbelief and withdrawal from the immediate surroundings. Film, like theatre, was conceived as a social media—that is, it was only consumed en masse. These days though, it seems like Hollywood is pumping out more and more formulaic and uninspired works, many of which skip the theaters and go straight to the home (read: "private")-viewing formats (DVD, iTunes, etc). And viewing films alone only serves to supersede any conversation or social response to them.
These approaches to study only seem to distance prospective artists from the idea that they might be able to undertake either film making or criticism with both a knowledge of the history of cinema and a fresh take on its potential. The same problem exists to a certain extent in the American conservatory system and especially in our nation's approach to educating adolescent musicians that show particular promise (although we're generally lucky if our young musicians reach the point where their only challenge is a view of "new" western music as entirely disconnected from its own lineage—indeed, much of it is; moreover, most of our talented young musicians have to clear the hurdles of public education, hackneyed teachers, and oblivious or non-existent parenting. This is not to say that we never see young, intelligent, well-adjusted and capable instrumentalists, coming from a tight family circle with support abounding, possessing a knowledge of both the history of western music and modern performance practice, and not only able to play major and minor scales in three octaves, but also seeming to have a point of view about melody, phrasing and interpretation. It's just extremely rare. But I digress.)
Murch's above take on the links between film and Beethoven bring us closer to understanding (at some considerable distance) how we came so quickly to accept the "language" of film, but he leaves us with (his) impression (read: resignation) that the language of film within three decades of its invention somehow became so steeped in convention as to have been fully defined and incapable of evolution, not only for the film makers of the 1930's, but for the film makers of all of the films that would ever be.
We cannot accept film language as "dead." Wagner wrote about the Gesamtkunstwerke, first in reference to the Greek tragedies that combined music, dance and poetry, and then in reference to his own operas. His notion of the ultimate art form should have made a simple transition to film, the only medium that could surpass the technical aspects of the Grand Opera he despised so much, while still incorporating the drama of the stage play. Unfortunately, the body and artistry of filmed opera to date is nothing short of disappointing.
The answer may lie in new stagings of old opera. In increasing number, opera companies are putting on productions that incorporate not only images projected on stage, but images projected in the hall. In the form of individual screens on the backs of comfortable new seating in the orchesra and widescreens designed for viewing by entire balcony sections, opera companies are providing us with new ways of absorbing art. Just as sitcoms are regularly filmed in front of a live audience and broadcast, movie theaters and stadiums throughout the world are once again filling their seats by simulcasting opera that is being performed live somewhere else. The experience in the hall is that of the movie theater and the live audience—the opera-goer is able to see the singers (and in some cases the projected scenery!) in close-ups on the back of the seat in front of him. Should he care to look away from the screen for a moment, he might see the rest of the "picture" on the stage in front of him. The possibilities are staggering, and one can only assume that cameras will soon be seen onstage in the near future, integrated not only into the staging, but the story itself, when one of the enlightened composers of our time (Dear John Adams:) writes an opera for this new medium.
At the San Francisco Opera, this new convention is called "OperaVision." A schedule of next season's dates can be found here.
I spent the day awhile back lifting weights and putting together next year's season for my youth orchestra. I'm not sure which was more exhausting.
Mozart, La Finta Giardiniera Overture
Chabrier, Joyeuse Marche
Mendelssohn, Symphony No. 4 (Italian) in A, 3rd Movement
Sibelius, Symphony 2 in D, 4th Movement
Mendelssohn, Ruy Blas Overture
Ipolitov-Ivanov, Procession of the Sardar
Rimsky-Korsakov, Capriccio Espagñol, Fandango & Alborado
Massenet, Scènes Pittoresques, Angélus & Fête Bohème
Grieg, Peer Gynt Suite
Debussy, Orchestrations of Erik Satie's Trois Gymnopédies
Schubert, Symphony No. 8 (Unfinished) in B minor
In addition to the above, we may program performances by any winners of this year's Concerto Competition (first annual).
I wrote this on my iPhone notepad during the landing at O'Hare in January:
"Once, at the end of the run of a show that ran for nearly 100 performances in Akron, Ohio, I followed the majority of the cast of dancers to the place they called home, New York City. I sublet a sunny apartment that belonged to a successful musician who was on the road year-round, and the city ate me alive. At the end of seven months, after spending more time waiting to audition than actually auditioning, and pretending to know enough about the stock market to sell Australian equities, I had nothing more to give Manhattan. I was spent.
A week before I was to fly back to Illinois to re-enroll as an English major, my brother came for a visit. We were notorious then. Just a year before, in the wake of a family funeral, I had taken Mike, then just twelve years old, to Mexico for a week of carnage that had spared no traces but a few staged black-and-whites and vague stories about fresh kiwi and sand volleyball. My parents were perplexed. We were silent, delirious.
In New York, Mike felt like the toast of the town. As he saw everything for the first time, I was inspired again. He reminded me why I had come. We emerged one night from the subway in the middle of times square and didn't say anything to one another. We just turned, eyes and mouths open. I took him to the top of the Empire State Building and to Central Park and to the Museum of Modern Art and to the Statue of Liberty. I felt like I had been rescued.
On the morning of the seventh day, I ran out of money. I got on Craigslist and sold my bed. As the two of us took turns riding the mattress downhill from 158th to 162nd, I realized that this is what it means to be someone's brother. I could barely hear him laughing over the sound of the cheap plastic casters screaming on the pavement, as he pushed the mattress down the hill. I looked back and smiled when we reached the end of the block. I got off to push. It was his turn to ride."
January 7, 2009, Chicago
The solo show at the Waterhouse in downtown Peoria last month was a success. We raised over $2000 for the Peoria High School of the Arts. Thanks to everyone who was there, and to Caterpillar for their matching grant. Thanks, too, to Lindsay Jones, Alex Austin and Andy Driscoll.









